Most of us have an ideal weight that "if I could just get back
to ___, I'd be happy." When I took this photo, I'm sure I had thoughts of getting down to my high school weight. However, I was comfortable in my skin. I could wear anything and look good. I looked like I was at least 8 years younger than I was and I was turning a lot of heads. Ultimately, I was not happy. I might have felt good about how I appeared on the outside, but I was dealing with a lot of emotional baggage on the inside. I was smoking cigarettes (I know, that's not cute), eating unhealthy meals (when I ate) and trying to hide the fact that I was a smoker who used nicotine to suppress hunger. I didn't like smoking, but it was my drug of choice. Perfectly legal and readily available.
A lot of people will look at this photo and think to themselves, "this girl is crazy and must not have any self-esteem because she is not that big!" Let me tell you something. I have belly fat which is often associated with heart disease, hypertension (high blood pressure) and diabetes. I don't know about you, but I don't want any of those things. Although my three c-sections contributed immensely to my belly, poor food choice and lack of a consistent exercise regimen were also factors.
Good Laaawwd! Look at that wagon she's draggin'! I have never been short on booty. As a matter of fact, I could probably give away half of it and never miss a beat. This, to me, was always my best asset, no pun intended. Why? Probably because it's what everybody always talked about. Big booty this...junk in the trunk that...from high school through my mid-twenties,my ego was the size of my butt, large and in charge.
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I'M DOWN ALMOST 35 POUNDS AND I WANT TO SHARE MY SUCCESS!
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I'M DOWN ALMOST 35 POUNDS AND I WANT TO SHARE MY SUCCESS!
Dance! Too much booty in the pants! Hahaha I'm with you, I want to get back to that "pre-baby" weight. Back when I looked good in whatever I put on. My husband says he loves how I look right now, at this very moment. That's all fine and dandy, but I want to love how I look too. And that entails, losing about 20lbs+. Diabetes is too common in my family to think it's okay to be "a little big". Pshhh! There is a word for how not-right that is, an oxymoron!
ReplyDeleteI love my booty... I'd just like to love a little less of it. :0)
ReplyDeleteI feel the exact way! I was always the skinny one until I wasn't. People still think I look "good" but I wish I was 20lbs lighter, healthier and fit. I've been talking about working out and everything for a while but now I'm over this "gaining weight" thing. I'm glad I did, so I know that this is not what's hot for me. I love your blog!!
ReplyDeleteOnce you decide you don't want to be where you are, the only thing left to do is move forward. Start small. Get active and don't completely change your eating habits at once. In my experience, once you start integrating healthy food choices into your meals, the craving for junk subsides and you begin making healthy choices subconsciously. Good luck and thank you for your support!!
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